Trials, Tribulations, Rants, and Maybe Some Whining

It's now the end of January and there is one more night of the training camp that we do every year to go. I have been struggling with shin splints the entire time and I've tried to do my best, but I still feel like my best just isn't good enough. I should not still be struggling with 25/5 even with shin splints. But I do. I've come as close as 24.5/5 but haven't broken that last lap in more than a year. Tonight was the best I've done in some time with 20/5. I'm not that far off...and I don't know what else I can do to make it easier on myself. Ok. I do know. I need more cardio besides skating in my life. However, I work two jobs that adds up to 60 hours a week, plus my derby practices on three other nights a week. I'm not actually sure when I have time for more cardio, altho I might try squeezing it in during my lunch hour...as miserable as that sounds. Because if I don't do something I will lose my place on the roster for the 2013 season. I'm already worried about that because we have so many up and coming fresh meat who are really good. Honestly, some thing that would really help me I think would be quitting my second job. It would give me more free time in my life as a whole that I could use to rest as needed or to increase my workouts. Both of those things are totally on the agenda. Also on the agenda is a pair of Bont semi-customs. But I have pills to pay first and it doesn't look like I will be getting back as much in taxes as I had hoped for so I can't use that money. Well...I could, but that would be irresponsible of me...I'm trying to be an adult. Trying. If there's anyone out there who has advice and tips for a rotten meat who still has endurance issues I'll take them. I just feel like I should be better than this and I'm only falling further and further behind. Sometimes I don't know what to do. So I just keep skating and hope that its enough. Dixie