Friday, July 29, 2011

nothin new

Wow...I've really gotten lax about keeping up with things lately. Of course, we are also experiencing a summer slump within the league so that certainly doesn't help matters. Playing freeze tag on your skates is awesome though. :)

I am working on planning schedule for next season and hopeful that we will have our flooring/bouting space issue worked out so we can have home games more frequently. Also, one thing I don't like about derby is board meetings. LOL Although ours are generally pretty low key affairs that don't have tons of drama. I am looking forward to practice next week and am really kind of annoyed at my job because they prevent me from going to the Freshie practice to help out and meet the new girls. Grr. And that's my derby life right now....

Dixie

Monday, July 11, 2011

Bout day recap...sort of...

So we had a bout Saturday night against Enchanted Mountain Roller Derby. We thought we were OK with our roster, only to realize a couple days before that we weren't so much. So we went into the bout with 9 skaters. That made for a lot of hard skating and some very tired skaters by the end of the night. Considering that setback the game was a good one and while we lost by an almost 100 point margin I don't think we played a bad game. I felt like we learned a lot and will be able to use what we learned in our next bouts for sure. Can't wait to skate again. D<3!

Dixie

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

pre-bout practice

So as lousy as last week's practice was...this one was the complete opposite. It was a night where the planets aligned, angels sang, and derby was played, bitches! I had a good night, did lots of scrimmaging to prep for Saturday's bout, got some good hits, am working out being an "anchor" that simply allows me to shove people or be shoved where I need to be, and even ran a full two minute jam. Granted, it was me and another girl who rarely jam and it was a slow jam, but I got lead jammer and fought my way through that pack repeatedly. I was NOT gonna call it off. We did good. And I smell...so on that note...shower time for me!! Derby <3!!


Dixie von D.

rant

I know that I write a lot about being better and doing things to get myself there, but have struggled with the motivation to do what I need to do for a very long time. I'm still trying to push myself and go where I need to go in order to succeed, but when I constantly feel like the worst player on a team and berate myself even while others are cheering me on it just feels hopeless. I don't want to give up on roller derby, but I'm scared that derby will give up on me. There are a lot of "but"s in the previous sentences...which to me says that I'm making excuses. And I am. So I need to break that habit. I need to break the habit of simply vegging out all day long. I need to grab my sneakers, tuck my girls into a super supportive sports bra and start jogging, biking, stretching, or whatever exercise I can do that will help me. I need to get over my issue with being fat and slow and out of shape and feeling like people are judging me and just do it. Why is this so hard for me?