Whine...

This is entirely not related to derby at all and basically I'm feeling depressed and whiny and self pitying and bored and a bit pathetic. I know that a LARGE part of the way I feel today is because I have been cooped up at home with nothing to do but clean or do homework for a week now and I still have probably another week to go. Of course, then I go on vacation, but that's not right now and right now is where I'm at.

I can't skate, grocery shopping is a chore that requires me to either ride one of those stupid mart carts or try to walk the whole time and end up hurting because I over did it (both options suck), I have no Halloween plans, I missed the QCRG bout I was supposed to be at cause of my stupid surgery, I'm broke, there is nothing awesome and fun to do, and and and....

Yeah, it's one of those days. *sigh* I'm trying to use all this free time I have to be productive and get lots of cleaning and schoolwork done and get the bylaws done for the derby league I'm with, but I keep getting sad and miserable and don't want to do anything when I'm sad and miserable. Also, feeling like this makes me want to drink alcohol. Drinking when you're already depressed is a bad idea. I know this. Which is why I keep little to no alcohol in my house unless I have plans on drinking it very shortly after purchase when I'm not depressed. Trying not to be come an alcoholic is working, but sometimes it is hard. Ugh, I sound drunk as it is, but I'm not. I'm just sad, miserable, depressed, etc. (SEE ABOVE)*sigh* Gonna try to focus on being productive....

Dixie von D.
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Off skates :(

*sigh* Being off skates sucks. I don't mind missing practice due to prior plans or trips or what not, but because of illness or injury is another thing. I want to be better RIGHT NOW so I can skate. But since I have four little holes poked in my belly where they removed my gallbladder it's going to take a few days I think. On the up side this means that my wheels will probably show up soon now because I can't use them...LOL I'm off to go get caught up on life that was put on hold during my hospital stay and will be back when I have something more to share! DERBY LOVE!!!!

Dixie von D.

practice makes progress

So Wednesday night at practice some of us began boycotting certain drills because there are things that we need to be working on that we aren't and things that we are working on that don't seem quite so necessary as prepping for our minimum skills test. I spent more time off skates than was probably ideal, but the time I did have went well. My wheels are still not here (big shock...) and our coach kept telling me I needed to use speed to get through the pack during jamming drills. Do you know how hard it is to get any sort of speed when you're using outdoor wheels on a sport court surface?? Srsly?? I'm almost ready to just order them from elsewhere and eat the extra cost. But Cannonball has an older set of Caymans that she's going to let me borrow and I know that as much as I have heard people say that Caymans suck they will have to better than the outdoor wheels I'm using now. And that was practice. No major falls, nothing super exciting. I'm still improving, I've lost a pound according to the scale, but none of my clothes fit right which indicates that I'm losing fat and inches and gaining muscle. I fit into a size 20 top again which I haven't been able to comfortably do for a while now so yay for that! And now...off to mundane things like housework. DL<3

Dixie von D.

first time jamming...kinda

Practice tonight really flew by and my ass hurts...mostly cause I'm clumsy and not cause I did something awesome, but let's not get into that. Let's talk about me skating an endless jam as a jammer, which was fun cause i got into the pack and just start checking people cause I can't get enough speed to just blast through them like some of the others were doing. We also ran several scrimmage jams, but my head was kinda off at that point. I'm dehydrated and really feeling it tonight so I've been downing water and powerade like crazy...it's not helping much yet though.

My mojos that I ordered did not come in yet...*sigh* but I'm holding out hope for next week. Overall practice tonight went well. I still HATE the Wall of Pain, still remind our coach that he's a sadist and sometimes flip him off, but he knows it's all in fun and still pushes me as hard as he thinks he needs to so that I improve. And I am still getting better. The harder I push through my crossovers the more speed I generate through a corner. I'm using that to keep up with the "big girls" who are better skaters than I am. Unfortunately, I'm working so much harder for my speed that I still can't maintain it for long, but that comes with time and more training. I really need to start working harder on my cardio outside of skating, but I freaking hate doing it...skating is fun and awesome and my girls are all there...jogging through the neighborhood is boring and stupid and not fun...lol Anyways...off to bed for an early appt. tomorrow and more derby love soon! DL<3

Dixie von D.

Beating each other up

Practice had a LOT of hitting and blocking type drills last night and it was a lot of fun. It was also pretty mellow as far as practices go, but that can be a good thing. Endless jammer is quickly becoming a favorite drill and eventually I am going to try jamming instead of blocking, but as of yet I haven't worked up the nerve (or speed) to do so.

I know that at least one of the others has commented on being a bit sore today and I'm definitely feeling the results of practice last night. Not really banged up, but I took a few good spills and was giving and receiving some fun hits. We all need to work on getting used to giving and taking hits and also Coach pointed out that we need be using our crossovers more to get speed in the corners which makes mad sense and I can see what he means and it makes uber sense and I can launch myself with some speed through the corners, but getting speed on straights is NOT happening at this point. I think I might have a set of Mojos by next week though and am hoping so!!!

Baseball slide falls I can do well (go figure!) and got a laugh as we were practicing the drill when I promptly completed a fall, looked up, and said, "Now that I can do!" And that was most of practice. As usual I boycotted the Wall of Pain, even though I started feeling kinda anxious and should've skating more. Also, I should quit studying a go jogging while the weather is nice, but I'm sooooooooo far behind on schoolwork it's not funny. Which means I'm going to have to be done with derby for a while and go study...boring!!! DL<3!!!

Dixie von D.

Last practice a few days late

So I'm a bit slow in updating after last practice because everything else has gotten in the way of doing this. We cut things short due to a league meeting afterward, but overall I felt pretty good about it. Loosened the trucks a hair and working with those, perfecting my form which seemed to improve a LOT after loosening said trucks. Coincidence? Maybe..I dunno. But when doing our Wall of Pain drill (which I hate!!!) I had much better form and Coach complimented that. I'm not generating as much speed, but I think a lot of that is due to the outdoor wheels on an indoor surface. I'm working harder for the speed that I do get and my form has to be better to help me get that speed. Gotta get indoor wheels.

Also, landed a nice shoulder on the jammer during a scrimmage and while it wasn't quite hard enough to knock her down it was enough to make her stumble. One of the other girls who is a bit newer said that she hit her as well, but unlike the shot I took that was marginally successful her report was that she hit her and bounced off. She'll get there though and is going to be really good one day soon.

Can't wait for our bout in November! Training to get there and smoke our opposition! DL<3!

Dixie von D.